I love blog writing. It comes to me naturally, but for some reason, I had what some would call 'writer's block'. The idea was buzzing around in my head, yet I could not articulate what I wanted to say. I have been training up levelling and it is just how I like it - intensive. But I was in discomfort... oh no, had I lost my blog writing skill? Well, that would be limited belief in the making.
As we are ready to heal, our unconscious mind will present memories that have been previously suppressed as we now have tools to deal with these. I sat with the discomfort and released what I wanted to let go. I was free and had space in my mind. I was excited as I could now go back to blog writing. I love blog writing, have I said that before?
So I sat in peripheral vision to engage my unconscious mind and started tapping away. And woah, lo and behold, the words began to appear as they had before. It was fascinating how emotions can block our creativity.
I have always been different. From a very young age, it was evident I was unlike my siblings and cousins. I did try to fit in, but it was misaligned with a higher purpose. Finding me and living in my essence has given me true happiness. Was it easy?... It was less easier than conforming.
Would I change my journey to date?... I firmly believe everything happens for a reason, and having learnt the lessons from the past, I am the woman I want to be now. Those lessons made me resilient, and I am grateful for every moment.
So I bet you are wondering, what was the original blog I wanted to write about? Well, I am coming to that now.
A few days ago, I was walking to my training room part of my master training program. I was speaking to a good friend of mine. She is a beautiful soul, and we started discussing healing and all things fabulous. She mentioned that she had been looking at my social media and liked what she saw. A few people said this, and that was because I knew there had been a change in energy in myself. I was more aligned to my goals, and creativity was pouring through and hence why I was becoming a bit of a reels queen.
As we talked business, she mentioned that she was impressed that I had a mixed bag of modalities. This was not what the business Guru recommended, but we all know I am different. She said everyone says, "Jack of all trades, master of none", giving the impression that the person is not an expert as he/she has a broad skill set. Now I knew the whole saying, but not many people did.
The rest of the quote is 'but oftentimes better than master of one'. This is the problem with our habit of shortening things. We don't understand the original intention anymore. One of my teachers says people stop where the story ends but never look further. The more profound message is lost as we all fall for the story, but when you drop the story and look further, you see the lesson that needs to be learnt. This is similar to healing, the dis-ease has an intention behind it, and by finding the reason and lesson, we can be free and be a completely different person, living our higher self.
I come from a tradition of ihsaan (excellence in all that you do), tazkiya of Nafs (purifying your soul) and seeking bab al shifa (door of healing) to walk through and live the life you dream of. Part of this is to learning to let go of negative emotions and being in state of gratitude and dropping all that does not serve you to live in your fitra (essence) and sometimes this can be a story you have told yourself about who or what you are?
What story are you willing to let go of?